I’ve always had some ADD, but I grew up way before anyone knew what to call it. I didn’t quite understand why I’d forget the chords in the middle of a song my rock band was playing, or why I couldn’t play a piece of classical music from one end to the other without loosing track of where I was. I kept me from being able to go to a music conservatory, but I didn’t belong there anyway and would have been miserable, so that was a good thing. And it forced me to develop more creative ways of working that relied on other parts of my brain. Also good. God works in mysterious and confounding ways, doesn’t she?
Today, when I sit down to meditate I’m somewhat challenged to stay focused in my heart (my target of choice) listening and receiving from above. I’m usually good for up to a minute or two, and then it’s “oops, I’m thinking about something else”. Then I gently bring myself back to my primary objective.
But in doing my Santa Fe intuitive counseling work (and working with people all over the world for that matter) I find that virtually everyone has this problem with meditation. At least everyone who’s complaining. Fortunately, at least for myself, the purpose of a meditation practice isn’t to be in a solid state of bliss. The purpose is aligning my focus, so that for the rest of my waking hours I’m able to come from my heart, listen for higher guidance, and be open to receive support and direction. I’m practicing for that, which is why it’s called “a practice”. So, if during my meditation practice I get distracted and refocus in my heart 100 times, then I got a lot of practice. That’s a good meditation!
And despite the fact that I do get distracted, meditation does feel pretty darn blissful a lot of the time. Otherwise I probably wouldn’t stick with it.
By the way, being easily distracted and pulled into a spinning mind is often a pattern established early on, caused by trauma and fear. I’ve written about this elsewhere, but briefly stated, the true cure isn’t medication. It’s receiving healing from within, learning to become present with feelings, breathing, releasing, and becoming present again and again, just like in meditation. (Medication, meditation, take your pick.) With the right support, and over time, we learn that it’s not necessary to run from uncomfortable feelings into the intellect, to cut off sensation from the neck down. That’s not easy work to go through, but it’s very needed, and very worth the effort. Please enjoy.